she did a lot of acid

the madcap laughed at the man at the border.

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 01:42:36 GMT

haven't written anything in forever. everything's been okay for now, just one last countdown until january when Billy comes for good. listening to music at the moment, have off tomorrow. been on the atkins diet for 2 weeks now and have lost 13 pounds without doing much of anything but eating very strictly. feel tons better. quit smoking cigarettes october 2nd, slipped a few times while drinking but have stopped now. pink floyd. my job is a job, it's boring though which bores me beyond belief. i miss having an exciting job but those days will come again. been driving since may, working on getting my license. it's a year and a half today that me and Billy have been together. still in awe that I found my other half. i'm one of the lucky ones...

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 01:41:43 GMT

You rescued me,
Saved my life just in time.
Saw past all my issues and scars,
And made me try.

'Cause oh, the way you're kissing me,
Makes it hard to breathe,
But I still like it.
Oh oh, it truly feels like a dream.

I called you up and we talked all night
Ranting and raving how it wasn't right
How geography makes love so hard
It's oh so cruel to be oh so far
And you've been back and gone again since then
I just wait around until i see you again
And who could ask for more?
...
So we've grown so close
though it's been so hard
Being so god damn far apart.

I hate that hospital in Texas.
I hate the rapper in the Lexus.
I hate the pills I ate for breakfast.
Hate everyone.

shrimp parmesean recipes

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 02:55:29 GMT

SHRIMP PARMESAN

2 1/2 lb. lg. shrimp, cleaned
4 oz. grated Mozzarella
1/2 tbsp. onion powder
8 oz. marinara sauce
1/2 to 1/4 lb. butter
1/2 tbsp. garlic
2 1/2 tbsp. Parmesan cheese, grated

Preheat oven to 400 degrees. Place shrimp in a large baking dish. Melt butter and pour over shrimp. Spread Mozzarella evenly over shrimp. Sprinkle garlic and onion powder and grated Parmesan and cover with sauce. Cook for 15-20 minutes. Serves 5.

SHRIMP IN PARMESAN BUTTER

36 lg. shrimp, peeled and cleaned
1 c. butter
3 tbsp. capers
2 cloves garlic, crushed
2 tbsp. lemon juice
1 c. grated Parmesan cheese

In large skillet, melt butter and saute shrimp, capers, garlic, and lemon juice until shrimp is done, 5-10 minutes. Add Parmesan and serve over spaghetti, linguine or other pasta. Serves 4.

1/2 cup Italian seasoned dry bread crumbs
2 Tbsp. grated Parmesan cheese
1 tsp. garlic powder
1/4 tsp. salt
1 lb. uncooked large shrimp, peeled and deveined
2 eggs, slightly beaten
2 Tbsp. olive oil
1 jar Bertolli® Vodka Sauce made with Fresh Cream
4 ounces mozzarella cheese rolled with prosciutto, sliced

Preheat oven to 400°. In shallow dish, mix bread crumbs, Parmesan cheese, garlic powder and salt. Dip shrimp in eggs, then bread crumb mixture until evenly coated.

In 12-inch nonstick skillet, heat 1 tablespoon Olive Oil over medium-high heat and cook 1/2 of the shrimp, turning once, 6 minutes or until shrimp turn pink. With paper towel, wipe pan clean and repeat with remaining 1 tablespoon Olive Oil and shrimp.

In 13 x 9-inch baking dish, evenly spread 1-1/2 cups Sauce; top with shrimp. Pour remaining sauce over shrimp, then top with mozzarella. Bake 7 minutes or until cheese is melted and sauce is bubbling.

36 jumbo shrimp
6 tablespoons extra virgin olive oil
3 cloves garlic minced
1 teaspoon salt
1 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper
1-1/2 cups unseasoned breadcrumbs
3/4 cup grated parmesan cheese
6 tablespoons melted butter
3 medium lemons cut in wedges

Directions
Preheat oven to 475 then peel and devein shrimp leaving tails intact.
Mix together olive oil, garlic, salt and pepper in a bowl.
Add shrimp and toss lightly to coat then refrigerate 1 hour.
In shallow bowl combine bread crumbs and parmesan cheese.
Place each shrimp in bread crumb mixture and turn to lightly coat both sides.
Arrange shrimp so that they aren't touching each other in an ungreased pan.
Drizzle with melted butter then place pan on center rack of oven and bake 10 minutes.
Serve immediately with lemon wedges.

who want's cake?!

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 23:39:38 GMT

Wilford Brimley on tape: Hi. This is Wilford Brimley. Welcome to ‘Retardation: A Celebration.’ Now, hopefully with this book, I’m gonna dispel a few myths, a few rumors. First off, the retarded don’t rule the night. They don’t rule it – nobody does. And they don’t run in packs. And while they may not be as strong as apes, don’t lock eyes with ‘em, don’t do it. Puts ‘em on edge. They might go into berserker mode, come at you like a whirling dervish, all fists and elbows. You might be screaming, ‘No, no, no,’ – all they hear is, ‘Who wants cake?’ Let me tell you something: They all do. They all want cake. Well, that’s it for the celebration. I guess the most important thing to remember is, they’re just like you and me.

don't go around breakin' young girl's hearts

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Thu, 04 Jun 2009 13:21:40 GMT

There's been talk of Billy taking me to Philly for my birthday (since he's going to try really hard to be able to get up here for my birthday). I'm uber excited if it takes place. His release date is September 3rd...the countdown is going by quicker than I thought. Listening to Billie Jean and enjoying not being hungover from last night. Since my mother finally got a cablebox and we once again get all of the channels, all I have been watching is one of the 3: cooking shows, wedding shows, or shows about jail. Ehhhhhhh...the last 2 are scary, the latter obviously because of the nature and the second because I now have wedding fever and it's all I think about and I'm not even engaged. I'm going to try to stick to the cooking shows...

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Sat, 30 May 2009 00:06:14 GMT

(971): I have two black x marks on my hands.
(503): Yep you got cut off last night after a stripper bent over in front of you and you screamed very loudly 'I can see your soul from here'
(971): damnit I wish I could remember that.

(734): i was shrooming and she was sobbing. i was trying to be sympathetic, but i could see the veins working like worms under her skin. and then her face stripped down to the muscle.
(1-734): what was she crying about?
(734): i wanna say it was the lack of skin on her face but maybe she lost her job.

(801): My husband just tried to seduce me by saying we can do it doggystyle so you can watch tv

(520): I just went through her cupboards. Eye patch and sword. nowhere near each other. different shelfs.

Blackberries need to come with a feature that disables texting to certain numbers after 2am based on content. liek disabling texting to 'dad' containng the words 'lets try to find more blow.'

Do you think an esthetician would be willing to wax the Chanel Cs into my crotch? That way, whenever a guy gets ready to pound on it I can go "Careful, it's Chanel."

(607): I had a dream last night that I was the one that killed Biggie

(978): Omg alex and i were cooking weiners on a campfire and a bear came and i am waayyy too high for this

(573): Plan A DEFINITELY worked... Go with me to get Plan B??

(619): do all gilrs hav hair on thier vagaina ?
(805): Don't drive home.

(402): So she couldn't stop dragging her teeth while she was blowing me.
(1-402): Ahh dude, that fucking sucks, what'd you do about it?
(402): Decided to drag my teeth while eating her out... She got the point.

(773): I am going to be in the room whjen you have your first child and spit on its face before its even all the way out of you.

(323): You got in a fight last night?
(818): Yeah! Some dude in the bathroom...he was standing there and I notice he's got the same shirt as me on so I'm like...dude you should have called me, we look like idiots...he didn't say anything...so i got pissed and hit him...completely decimated and my hand was all bloody and covered with glass afterward...weird dude, never saw him again that night or since.
(323): Um...Did this guy happen to look almost exactly like you?

(202): On Saturday, I sharted on my roommates dog while trying to make it smell my farts. Today I got security clearance to work for one of the most respected and secretive govt agencies in the US
(703): It's the American dream

(708): Any of you guys fuck a 16 year old again? Because our front yard got fucked over high school style.

(206): I just tried to pick my 105-lb puppy up and accidentally fingered its asshole
(425): There are some things we keep to ourselves Brian

(602): Tonight was fucked up. First my mom called me and told me I had to go to the bar to pick up my dad 'cause he was drunk. Then when I got there my dad was doing a body shot from this lady who happened to be my 1st grade teacher. By far the most awkward car ride home. Idk if I should tell my mom or not.

(765): that was after robitussin, alcohol, and chocolate sauce... but before we finished pregaming

(530): You screamed, "I am going to fuck this cheeseburger". They all started laughing until you actually started having sex with the cheeseburger.

(323): this girl just gave me her phone number and 5 mins later right in front of me she is giving her number to another dude
(765): call her and ask her what she thinks she's doing

(513): what's Bukake?
(1-513): a bad idea.

i'll sleep when i'm dead.

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Wed, 27 May 2009 15:29:32 GMT

Have had a lot of time to think lately..don't know if it's a good or bad thing. I need a new job to keep me occupied and help me pass time faster. I just filed for unemployment for now. I've been on a diet, eating relatively healthy, got a little stricter with it yesterday and am starting to add working out to my regimen today.

Had a horrible dreams last night. First I went to visit Billy in jail and was actually allowed to stay there...stayed cause I wanted to spend time with him, that wasn't the worst dream, I just don't like envisioning him in that place. We were laying in bed together and he was next to me, next thing I know, I went to hold him, and I was awake, in my room, with my hand outstretched on my empty bed, I cried and then fell back asleep.

Then I had a nightmare that I was going to jail and was on a bus the way there and some black girl started with me and I fought back and then she pulled out a knife and stabbed me in my hand. The bus was filled with big butchy women who were probably going to rape me when we got to the jail. I woke up realizing where she stabbed me in my dream, I actually have a scar.

What happened to my fun, crazy dreams?

The night before, I had a dream me and Billy had our own place (and a pet dolphin that was like 3 feet long, which turned out to be mini me in a dolphin suit). We were on our bed, about to watch some things on youtube on our laptop when all these skanky chicks showed up at the house and without one word, he left to go to some club with them to see some d j. I was pissed not only cause he was leaving me to hang out with skanky bitches, but we were supposed to spend time together and he just left me. Brianna showed up and suggested we follow them there, but he took our jeep, so I picked out this really futuristic shark looking like car that sat 2, and we followed them there. I woke up right after we got there.

Fuck my crazy mind, I don't even want to sleep anymore.

2 weeks under our love-sized belt...

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Thu, 21 May 2009 13:07:39 GMT

When all is said and done
And the air we breathe is not enough
To keep these broken wings floating
Carry on into the sun, into the sun

On into the sun
On into the sun

Looking down at you, sleeping
From above, I love
Looking down at you, weeping
From above, I love

Over and over again
I ride the wheel that turns
Over and over again
i find the soul that burns
And if it has no end
The lonely heart that learns
Over and over again
I ride the wheel that turns

When all is dead and gone
And the air we breathe is not enough
To keep these dying arms, see them
Carry on into the sun, into the sun

I’m not the only one
I’m not the only one

Heaven skies are reeling
And my hand that holds the world
Deep inside i'm reaching
Into the universe

Over and over again
I ride the wheel that turns
Over and over again
i find the soul that burns
And if it has no end
The lonely heart that learns
Over and over again
I ride the wheel that turns

Oh, oh, oh
Oh-oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh

Over and over again
I ride the wheel that turns
Over and over again
i find the soul that burns
And if it has no end
The lonely heart that learns
Over and over again
I ride the wheel that turns

Oh, oh, oh
Oh-oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh

Over and over again
I ride the wheel that turns
Over and over again
i find the soul that burns.
-Foo Fighters

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Tue, 28 Apr 2009 15:13:01 GMT

:-)

"the only thing that makes sense is....this"

sometimes I still wonder how I got so damn lucky.

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Wed, 15 Apr 2009 13:04:46 GMT

And you're my obsession,
I love you to the bones.<3

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Fri, 03 Apr 2009 22:57:00 GMT

Go through your wall posts and list the last twenty-one people to post on your wall. Do not list any repeats; simply go to the next name in the list. Then, answer the forty-two questions pertaining the twenty-one names. When you're finished, tag all twenty-one in the list, so the cycle can continue. If you've been tagged, copy and paste this information into a new note, and follow the directions above.

( you don't have to do this again)

1. Brittany Fergo
2. Brianna Horn
3. Katie Quigley
4. George Gonzales
5. Jenee Martins
6. Jenny Mathews
7. Bonnie Winkler
8. Brittany Gimbel
9. Nichole Savino
10. Sarah Ross
11. Alyssa Bloom
12. Jess Harlow
13. Jessi Carreri
14. Danielle DiFranco
15. Billy Evans
16. Kay.
17. Kristy Bonsoghoisdnbs..idk how to spell it. lol
18. Kelsey Lutz
19. Brittany Baumann
20.Courtney Bunting
21. Jessica Hernandez

1. How did you meet 1?
health class, 11th grade. I looked around and decided she would be the one person in class I would talk to for the rest of the year. We spent the year getting high before health class cause we're classy like that. She's fucking amazing

2. What would you do if you never met 19?
Well..........I wouldn't have a best friend, I'd probably either be shooting up right now or in jail or a mental home cause she's kept me sane since 5th grade, ALSO she introduced me to Billy so without her, I'd truly have lost my top by now and pulled a harry carey or something. Honestly, I'd be dead.

3. What would you do if you dated 15?
Just so happens that's my wonderful boyfriend.<3

4. Have you ever seen 8 cry?
Can't say I have.

5. Would 3 and 13 make a good couple?
I don't think Katie likes girls lol

6. Describe 21.
Spontaneous, flirt, quiet unless you know her, then she won't shut up. All in all, a good girl

7. Do you like 6?
She's kickass

8. Do you think 4 is attractive?
I'm sure he gets the ladies

9. When was the last time you talked to 9?
When I was at Bri's...Friday night

10. Would you ever kill 15?
Are you kidding me?! Not even if I wanted to with all my being, I couldn't with a face like that.

11. Where does 18 live?
Down the block

12. What is the best thing about 12?
She's fucking out of her mind, she's the tiniest loudest thing ever. she lives in harlem with all the obamas and kanye wests and pugs and ludas and billy look alikes. she wants to take a picture with billy and trick myspace into thinking its dave grohl. EVERYTHINGS GREAT.
oh and she's a shark, suck her dick.

13. What would you like to tell 8 right now?
I'm home, come get the suit lmao

14. What is the best thing about 10?
Although I never met her, she helped me out with advice in a pretty rough time and couldn't have been nicer.

15. Have you ever kissed 11?
on the cheek

16. What’s the best memory you have of 3?
We don't really have any memories..we've only hung out once and we were both practically dating the same douchebag. So I guess it was realizing what a pos he was and ridding our lives from him?

17. When is the next time you’re gonna see 16?
I've never met her lol.

18. Is 5 pretty?
oh yesss

19. What was your first impression of 17?
Her myspace was trippy

20. Is 13 a good friend?
She's a great person. We aren't close anymore or anything, but she's a good friend to anyone she knows.

21. Have you seen 21 in the last month?
Nope.

23. Have you been to 2’s house?
I go there every paycheck and we party cause she's my biffle.

24. When’s the next time you’ll see 1?
IDK. We are both working tons and I miss her.

25. Are you really close to 7?
Yes I am. We try to get together whenever we can to catch up. I love that chick.

26. Would you give 12 a hug?
I'd squeeze her til lil wayne fell out.

27. Who is someone not on this list you love, describe them.
Danielle Malagoli.
I've only known her for about half a year or so but she has definately become my closest friend here on the island. She's one of the funniest people I've ever met and I always have a great time at work with her. We hang out as often as possible. She's kinda like the sister I never had but always wanted and it's kick ass cause we got to skip all that fighting bullshit in between when we were teens.

28. Do you know a secret about 20?
I don't believe so.

29. Describe the relationship between 20 and 9.
I think they are friends

30. What’s your friendship like with 5?
I've known her since like 7th grade. We always end up in trouble together (SORRY) her mother hates me. but I love her and will always be there for her.

31. Have you ever danced with 13?
No

32. How do you know 6?
We went to high school together but we met online, she randomly imed me one day and was my friend on lj. we became really good friends and i dated her bf (at the times) best friend. we no longer talk to them cause their band sucks but we still chill.

33. Does 16 have a bf/gf?
she's engaged

34. Have you ever wanted to punch 4 in the face?
I don't think so.

35. Has 11 met your mother?
SHE LOVES PATTI

36. Have you traveled anywhere with 10?
Nah, never even met her. Know her through Billy

37. If you gave 7 $100, what would they spend it on?
Marijuana, cigarettes, alcohol, and a cute shirt or 2.

38. What is your best memory of 2?
there are SO MANY. most recently, tenacious D at her house while laughing so hard I thought I was literally gunna split my sides. trying to draw billy a picture that was great but in my opinion is one of the shittiest things ive ever created. watching penis puppeteers together, making fun of people, usually in front of thier faces without them realizing it cause we're awesome. staying up til 8 in the morning being naughty. mystikal. brooklyn. getting tats. just everything

39. What is the one thing you most want 14 to know?
She makes me pee my pants a lil

40. What was the last thing you did with 19?
Cried, jumped around junkyards, hung out with her cats and family, drove around in fl trying to get my mind off things at the time.

41. When did you meet 17?
school

42. What do you like least about 18?
that we hardly talk anymore but we've been best friends for ever :-(

fun survey.

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 15:31:19 GMT

Go to urban dictionary. com and type in your answer to each question in the search box, then write the FIRST definition it gives you...then tag 10 of your friends so they can do it, too.

Possibly not the cleanest site ever created, you have been forewarned!

FUNNY STUFF

1) Your name?
Caitlin
A girl often so amazing that no boy will ever deserve her. She is often red-headed and dancing in the halls, in addition to being beautiful inside and out.

2) Your age?
21
The magical age where it is legally ok to get incredibly drunk. At this time, a young adult spends most of his free time consuming vast amounts of alcohol in a variety of forms, saying that they're "making up for lost years."

3) One of your friends?
Brittany
The nicest sweetes person you will ever meet
She is always there for you.

4) What should you be doing?
Cleaning
The act of shoving everything in a closet and calling it decent.

5) Favorite Color:
Green
yes... it is most definitely referring to the marijuana... and also, upon occassion, any substance with similar uses. too, properly, of course, it is a golfing term, but that;s really not very much fun, now is it?

6) Hometown:
Islip
Islip is a cute, small south shore town in suffolk county LI. It is by far the best of all the Islips, and according to cnn.com it is the safest town in the country.
This town is hated by most of the kids who live there..but once they leave most realize how much they actually love their home town. Even though it is surrounded by the ghetto (CI) and the snotty rich kids from EI it is full of down to earth people-where almost everyone knows eachother-and is a great place to live!

Islip is steps away from the water, and we have main street..it may be small but it has everything you could possibly need-except for good ol' Movies On Main Street (RIP M.O.M.S.) Main Street attracts kids from surrounding towns..who are clearly jealous they don't live in plain Islip. We may insist that we hate it but who wouldn't want to go to a High School where security rides around on golf carts? no matter who your friends are everyone agrees that their favorite day is 4-20,we love our football team even tho it sux, most people wear flip flops year round, you can easily cut school to go to the beach, there are more geese than students and Sitting in class in the H.S. you can hear the peacocks nextdoor or see the dogs chasing the geese away.

So those of you who don't live here be jealous that you don't live in this awesome little beach town. And those of you who do live here- whether you went to Sherwood or Commack, if you're rich or not so rich be happy because you live in Islip-theres not many places like it out there!

7) Month of Your Birthday:
October

Tom the jackhammer Billuson brutally molested a sheep named "Octy" during the 31 days of this fall month. The story was so horrifying that villagers named these 31 days after the poor sheep, thus resulting in the name october

8) Last Person You Talked To On The Phone
Danielle
she's attractive and full of life. loves to laugh and have a good times. also loves to party and smoke weed until the break of dawn. shes a keeper. anyone would be lucky to get with her

9) Favorite Sport:
Baseball
What people think about to avoid premature ejaculation, when having sex.

10) Your last name:
Miller
1. To be short.
2. To suffer from Napoleon Complex.
3. To have no control over one's self when intoxicated.

11) Your Middle Name:
Anne
A tall young lady with hair that changes color on a regular basis. Whenever she sees something slightly amusing, she bursts into convulsions of laughter that involve her shaking like she's about to explode, stamping her feet on the floor and pointing to the thing that she finds so hilarious. You can find Ann in her natural habitat, where she will be in a booth usually surrounded by people. You can pick her out of the crowd with her signature catchphrase "fuck my life". But when you get too close you are in danger of her throwing things such as World History textbooks at you or using umbrellas to forcefully hit you in various uncomfortable places, although most times she will simply sprawl across you and decide that moving would simply take too much work. The Anne, though, is a very kind and loving creature, with an impeccable sense of finding fun and adventure, and most who meet her love her to death, and I am no exception.

12) Favorite Food:
Eggroll
An eggroll is when you are talking to someone, and the second you say goodbye and they turn around, you get a huge eyeful of NECK FAT!!!! Shaped in eggroll form. Usually found in fat black men.

13) Type of Car:
No car, dick.

14) Favorite Drink
Long Island Iced Tea
What to buy a girl if you want to get in her pants.

16) Name of another friend:
Fergo
To fist a pig, and eat if for breakfast. And enjoy it.

17) Name of significant other:
Billy
a cute guy who is nice to his girlfriend and makes her laugh alot a billy is someone you either want to marry or have a long nice relationship. A billy is someone who might get his fealing hurts easily if you flirt with a nother girl he can be jelouse at times but in the end he still loves you but hes stupid you feal confident (brain wise) around him

18) Name of opposite sex:
Nick
a common misunderstood person, that doesnt give a second thought to just about anything and acts on impulse 98% of the time

19) Something special to you:
Love
An inexplainable yet incredibly strong feeling for someone...Most people use the word "love" to get into someone else's pants. Love is overused in today's world, people say they love someone because of the way they look or their body. That isn't love. Love is when you can't do anything without thinking about that person, you always want to be with them. It's not that you want to have sex with them, you just want to spend time with them and you just want to hold them and never let go. Love can be fooling, you can think you're in love and it can lead to the most horrible feeling in the world. Also you can wait so long for someone, loving them, and waiting for them to love you back, but they don't return it for a long time and you spend years thinking and thinking and it tears you up inside but when that person realizes that they love you back it's miraculous. Love is a very strong word, don't overuse it.

RESURRECT THE WOOLY MAMMOTH!!!

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Tue, 03 Mar 2009 14:08:16 GMT

why does my stomach hate me so much? is it so much to ask that I wished I didn't have to throw up everyday?!
goddamn.

I guess that's my only complaint.

I tried to stop man, I tried the best I could..

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Fri, 27 Feb 2009 01:29:34 GMT

Life is beautiful lately. Short of anything easy, but still beautiful. I would'nt trade what I have for anything else in the world. A few short months and Billy will be here. I think I hear my mom crying while listening to Pearl Jam in the other room. Usually I'd have something else on to cover it up but Billy made me realize my love for them. I just smoked the last of my stash and am trying my hardest to save my money for something more important. I bought my bunny food and bedding, so that's always good. My room looks like it hasn't been clean since Jesus died and I have to fix that. I put on music and now my mom's trying to communicate with me. Not over Nirvana, buddy-o-pal. I'm currently tying up cable cords with my mother so we stop tripping over when we go from room to room. Monday I have an appointment with the planned parenthood people to go on BC. I hope they don't have to look at my goods. I'm going to look at fmylife.com.

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Thu, 15 Jan 2009 15:36:06 GMT

I'll always love him

:-)

swedish fish and a bag of crack.

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Tue, 06 Jan 2009 14:49:46 GMT

I had a dream that I was getting married. I didn't have a wedding dress, but I had a ring and a hall and a list of guests and it really felt real. I was crying cause I was so happy. I didn't get to finish the dream cause my internal alarm clock woke me up, but it started getting weird anyway. This is my month! I'm getting my room ready for Billy, emptying out a dresser for him and such. Maybe even taking down most of my Dave Grohl pics...but Idk for sure yet.

Will Ferrel Movies Aren't Supposed To Make You Cry

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Tue, 09 Dec 2008 16:24:46 GMT

I've become so in touch with my emotions that even funny movies with a sad low-light in it brings me to my knees. I've never been happier to be brought to cry though, because I know it's for the right reasons. It's because I can look at how lucky I am and how loved I am. I'm no longer shedding tears because I'm alone or miss my past or am wondering why I'm so miserable. The past eight months of my life have taught me more than I ever thought I was capable of learning. I've changed, for the better. I've corrected my wrongs. I've stayed true to myself. I've kicked bad habits. I learned how to cherish my family. I've surrounded myself with the best of friends. I've built myself a future and most importantly, I've fallen in love.

It's funny how love, can be the root of all your problems or the cure for your pain. A year ago, I would have not believed a single soul if anyone had told me that my life was going to make a complete 180. I never thought I'd be able to maintain a happy, positive composure without drugs as an escape. I did not think I'd ever find someone who would treat me like gold. I always accepted the love I believed I deserved, in the past, which turned out to be close to none. Now, I feel as if I have enough to spread throughout the world. My whole outlook on life has changed. I can see myself having a family in 10 years. I know who I will be waking up next to for the rest of my life. I can rely on friends who I will have the rest of my life.

I've been through hell and back and I'd like to announce, I'm making my stay here permanent.

<3

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Mon, 08 Dec 2008 17:01:33 GMT

Billy should be here for good before too long. He got a job and works every night for like 12 hours and is saving up to leave that hell hole. I can't wait to hold my baby in my arms again. <33

THANK FUCKING GOD...

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 23:49:53 GMT

If your right hand is causing you pain
Cut it off cut it off
If your colours have started to run
Let them all run, run away from you
There is lightning in this room
Above our heads waiting to strike
Im a thinker not a talker
Put your faith, your faith in God

We were hoping for some romance
All we found was more dispair
We must talk about our problems
We are in a state of Flux

Id kill for an adventure
Just you and I in the Curzon Bar
Dancing till we knew
So all that we've learnt disappeared
When you shouted at me
I saw my father in the second grade
Concerned and kind
But yet unable to reach me

We were hoping for some romance
All we found was more dispair
We must talk about our problems
We are in a State of Flux

State of Flux [x9]

We need to talk [x5]

We were hoping for some romance
All we found was more dispair
We must talk about our problems
We are in a state of Flux

-That song has nothing to do with anything, I just love it and the lyrics.

Today has been a day full of nothing but relief, hope for the future, and now....pizza.

Hell fuck yeah.

cheesy eggs

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 15:57:15 GMT

Billy was here last week, for an entire week and that was simply amazing. We got to spend so much time together, just bonding more and making each other laugh and getting to memorize each others bodies. I can't imagine my life without him now, and he says I'll never have to. All of my friends that have met him have approved him over and over again and all say the same thing when I ask what they think of him: "You guys are made for each other. I've never met someone so alike you and so suited for you." Now he's back in the sunny state of FL and looking for a job so he can start saving for his move to Philly. My promotion goes into effect in 2 weeks from this past Sunday and then I'll be making even more money and get paid vacations and all that sweet shit. I've been looking up pictures of downtown Philly and he's been looking into apartment prices. I think he said he found one for like $700 a month, which we could easily both afford. I'm just so stoked and looking forward to be able to live with him and wake up next to him everyday...I can't wait.

WORLD SERIES CHAMPS 2008 FIGHTIN PHILS!!!

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Thu, 30 Oct 2008 11:52:39 GMT

So the Phillies won the world series and Billy will be here Saturday [the parade is tomorrow]. I had Halloween off but am switching with Rommel so I can spend Saturday with Billy...He's staying til Friday and I couldn't be more excited. My stomach hurts right now. I stopped eating fast food and had a really bad hangover so didn't really eat...well, anything, for a few days and I feel a few pounds lighter. Not really the best way to go about it, but I guess whatever works and it's not like I was starving myself, I just couldn't eat cause everything I did consume came back up the way it went down...I have to make a PG rated version of my costume since I'll be at work, which is stupid and ruins the concept, but whatever. At least I get to spend a week with my baby :-) I'm so excited.

That's my Phillies jack-o-lantern I made. My brother and Baumann told me they think it looks like a penis, but whatever. It's the fucking symbol of the world champs so suck it. haha. It's like 7:50 in the morning and my brain isn't quite working up to par. I have to leave here in 30 minutes to catch the bus cause I have work 9-6 and we're getting 70 fucking boxes of shipment which am not really looking forward to doing, but shipment days always go by a little faster and then I only have 1 more day til my love gets here. I still gotta clean my shithole of a room too...

it ain't nothin but a g thang

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Thu, 23 Oct 2008 11:46:56 GMT

Billy is coming to spend sunday-monday with me. I'm so excited.

Billy is coming up here as soon as the World Series is over and staying til November 7th.
hellfuckyes.

=]

Writer's Block: Cryptozoology

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 18:56:34 GMT

Bigfoot, the Yeti, the Loch Ness Monster, el chupacabra—what is your favorite creature that may or may not exist?

View 501 Answers

EL CHUPACABRA!!!!

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Thu, 09 Oct 2008 15:42:50 GMT

it hurts more and more everytime he leaves.
next time, i'm gunna wanna go with him.

i love him

mymotoredheart@yahoo.com — Mon, 06 Oct 2008 15:36:43 GMT

Billy again tomorrow
=] <333333